Me, My Wishes and My Best Friend

Well Gals, nothing that I can say about me now, I want to say goodbye for 2006 and welcome 2007 in this new year I really wish that I will have a new better life.

In 2006, there were so many problem come, stressed at work, my relationship with my partners wasn't good, my financial was very very bad, my family problem seems were never happy ending. Thanks God, finally I can passed it and learned something from that, Life is struggle and challenge. That what can I say.

I have a best friend who was born on january 11, 1969 his name is Heri Hendayana, 2 days ago I was confused how can I say happy birthday to him? I don't know his current address and his phone number, little bit ironic, isn't it? Let me tell about him, he is my best friend since we were at Junior High School SMP Negeri 2 Sumedang and we were at same class and we also in one school at SMA Negeri I Sumedang although not in the same class. He is a nice guy, smart and comes from nice family. many funny things happened in that time, sometimes we do some "unusual" thing, we broke the limit. I would like to sincere my highly appreciation for him, he is the simple man with the smart brain. Now He lives in Jakarta with his wife and one child.

Can you explain how important a best friend, I only can say best friend is someone who can share a problem, happiness and share the thing that we can not share with our own brothers or own family, Im sure still many things.......

I always hope a better life, it make me keep hoping and dreaming. We all need that, don't we?

MY WAY

And Now, the end is near
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case of which I'm certain

I've lived a life that's full
I've travelled each and every highway
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way

Regrets? I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption

I planned each charted course
Each carefull step along the byway
And more, much more than this
I did it my way

Yes there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more that I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall
And did it my way

I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill my share of losing
But now, as tears subside
I find it all so amusing

To think I did all that
And may I say, not in shy way
Oh no...Oh no, not me
I did it my way

For what is a man? What has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels
And not the things he truly feels
And not the word of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows
and di it my wat

Yes, it was my way
My Comment : This song is relate to me and also this song means a lot for me. I found so many great song and I really like them but I really fall in love with MYWAY.

In Her Wedding Party

Kerobokan, September 29, 2006

She is the Queen not only for this night,
She always be the center of any attention
and she deserved that because she is too cute
but God i really jealous
Damned it!!

God....if last night was the last time for me to see her cutest smile just give me the patiente to face it, just give me someone to change her position in my heart ( too selfish, isn't it?). I thought I will be strong enough to come to her wedding but in fact I really want to scream, angry but no cry and tell all the peoples who comes that she always belong to me forever.....how come even just to hold my tears out was the hardest thing to do in that time.

Now God, tell me what will the next to me? what is the best thing that you still hide for me from this matter, hope not the worse one.

Well, anyway the show must go on, I will live with any kind of situation, in this time I just want to say Congratulation for your marriage, You know excatly how hurt my feeling was, but I know you don't have any best choise, neither me. So I will survive, meantime I will pray from the deepest of my heart "God, bring her back to me although I have to cheating from her husband. uppps......

I will keep praying as I dont have any choise anymore

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Im The Survivors

I was born at Bandung, West Java on May 31, 1968. Sometimes I think that was not good time for my parents to having me because one year after I was born my parents were separated and my mother took me but left me with my grandparents. It was hard to life and lived with them because they are too old to take care the children.

I wasn't closed enough with my parent, especially my father, after he separated with my mother he lived with his first wife and his children (guess how many stepbrothers did i have) . To be honest untill now I never known how many children that my father had from his wife. Sorry Father, I never hate you, I knew you didn't mean to ignore me, but you have to forgive me also for being far and runaway from you, and sorry for not asking you to come when I get married and not come to see you for the last time when you are passed away. My brother was lucky still having a good memory about you, but i didn't have at all.

My mother worked very hard for us (I have 2 sisters and one brother). I couldnt remember what is my sweet memory about you. Maybe I am to young to understand that, what i know about you is you are work so far away, every month you send money to my grandparents for our life. Sorry Mother....I already tried to be closed to you but i never felt that. I really appreciated you and all the thing happen to us is not your fault at all, only our situation was not good for us in that time. Mum, How can I explain to you if sometimes I feel that you ignore me, you never angry to my grandma when she beat me only for a small reason. and I couldn't cry, I couldn't go anywhere because i didn't have a choise. But Mum believe me, You tough me so many thing with your own way .....how to be patient, how to survive and i like that, but you forgot to teach me how to be confidence.....maybe I wasnt at the class......?

When i was a child, I spent most of time with my oldest sister and there were so many sweet memory about her, she was care about me, I really appreciated her.

Now im 38 years old, Thanks God that you give me a life until now. Now I am old enough to understand how to life and survive. I have one wife and 2 beautiful daughters.

I will always say to me, to my children and all my best friens ...Life must go on.....with or without someone else beside you.......be a good survivor and Im the Survivor.

G.....is for Girl and God

Oh Girl, you know excatly how to make me cry. Since you said that you want us to be separated, I feel that I'd rather die to live without you. I can understand the reason, we are stucked.... couldn't move to any best relation than now. We already knew each other about this, soon or later we have to choose our own way, I can't leave my family for you....and You can not choose me as your real soulmate.

Yesterday I was so sad, even now I still sad, but until when? I will give my heart to feel sad..... maybe I will cry if necessary but.... only 1 (one) week....No more.

Girl.... We spent our nice time together, we all have fun, your cutest smile, your white teeth, your thin eyebrow, your eyes, everything about you, God I have to loose so many nice thing, Damned it!!!!!! If I can turn back my life....or if I believe the reincarnation, I want to be your real soulmate to spend our time together until we are died.

God....wish you were here with me right now........where are you?

So Girl...perhaps now its time to say goodbye..........thank you for being my colour of life.

Denpasar, June 15, 2006